i feel super unsatisfied with my life. like if i die tmr, i would regret my last day on earth. and i understand that its impossible to have amazing wonderful days everyday of the year. but don't we need one in awhile? so that if i were to die tmr, i'd think back and say, i had a wonderful day this week and i'm happy. well that's not exactly e case now -.- and its getting me so wound up over that.

i want to live. no barriers. no restrictions or regulations. and just live. do what i want, when i want. be spontaneous. swim in e sea under the stars (which is impossible in spore). gallop through e fields on a horse (again impossible. getting a bit movie like here, but wth). dance in the rain. do everything i've been waiting to do. i've been waiting half of my life for this 8, 9 months. and yet here i am, stuck in a rut. i hate this.

honestly, i'd give up everything i have, just to live like that.

: unwritten :: natasha beddingfield :